I,of some people..
always get emotional right on the occasion day
I said,it’s okay bout my birthday
[trying to imagine that day was my birthday*
and well,wasn’t feeling any miracle..so it’s okay ;)]I said,it’s okay bout Christmas
[it doesn’t snow here anywayand I don’t go to church and dress up all Christmassy,prepared with presents ;)]I said,it’s okay bout someone’s departure
[They’ll come back anyway
in fact other people will do the crying and I’ll be numbed ;)]I said it’s okay this day,it's okay that day
But when it’s my birthday already,
I said,why is it so normal?why wasn’t anything happening yet??Christmas,
Why couldn’t I find my hat,where’d sis keep the decos!Goodbye,
Why is it so fast?
I haven’t even prepare my farewell speech
or,or warmed my hugI tend to stay cool.
purposely staying cool not expecting to not getting disappointments I thought.
but so damned.
never not jumping around when the minute comes
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I,of most people
Get emotional at night.
especially on bedI miss him badly,so badly that I needed to see him right away
But that's too when sis' leaving back for school
Dilemma.
I’m a homebody,It’s the affection that I
don’t wanna be unattached
It’s the years that I’ve lost
and nobody would feel.
‘cause
life’s a race,for them
.
You may say I’m dependant,
but I won’t die lonely.I’m an occupied person.I’ve got reality,family,the love one to attend to-
Sometimes,I need to neglect the others
But finally now that I’ve got time to think for myself
I’m a cry baby,I feel for lil things I tear for written stories I goosebumps for beautiful stuff.
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Someone would say I’m lazy not practising
Someone would say I’m immature to think of the IFs
Someone would say I’m a time-waster noting feelings instead my homework
Someone would say live up!don’t be emo
I will,just a lil more time.I’d chase up to you.
I am,’cause I’m preparing myself for the worst.
I will,’cause you’re pathetic,you can’t write.
I am,I’m admitting my fear.
not gonna avoid and regret.
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For the past 19years,I was there with sis.
For the past month,I’ve been there for sis.
Despite the less delightful encounters there,
Back here,you’ve found what you’ve been looking there.
Be wanting to go back dearest,
’cause you’ll come back again
and fill your life with the most familiar routine:)
And I won’t shed a tear,so to ensure your decisions.
I’m so glad,so glad that I put aside almost everything and let you come first.
I’m proud I gave you the share of the precious time that I didn’t,
and all the best things I have ;))
You’ve always been a great sis.
Sucked up your problems,‘cause bro n I have caused enough troubles.
Always the role model though we’ve never even try to be.
Always been that someone you think you
should,all for us.
Always asks for hugs & kisses like mom,to let us not be shy-
Hahaha.
Flashes,flashes far
from sissy's departing
to I'm afraid of his leaving
and too,to my turn to leave home
so,Mimmy there's something for you too;)
Though you’re always by me,
the image of me running into your room when I was 3/4/5
Crying,
"I’m scared that you’ll die!"And you smiled and hugged me to sleep.
Since then,I never lose any chance to say bye,love you
when you're gonna be out of sight,
with all my heart.
Never fail,e-v-e-r-y-t-i-m-e
Well,skipped my rebellious years.;\
Since his abandon,you’ve been the greatest person of our lives.
You backboned us through whatever shit,
Give us all the best and pick up our leftovers.
Stayed,though you weren’t my first choice to talk to
Though when I forgot bout my naivety in the younger days
Shouted,spent all I could,banged the door,
ignored you.I was so wrong
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I,of I don’t know who would.
Always miss the people right around me.an undrafted mind-too-full splitted out passage
sigh.who are we without our souls?And I’m gonna put this down,
and there'll be no more tearing nights :)
living life fullest and
See you again!;))
photo source:deviant art
this is lovey,
but well this would firstly represent,
I'm gonna miss you sister!'cause you're born on the Horse's
and we always have the same relish
er well sometimes no,which is when we choose stuff
that's good.
but damn I love that fluffy vintage sling bag you just took!
it's so fluffy I'm gonna die!HAHAH
arg.ok relish,just sometimes.
heheh I enjoy bullying you while I take care of you
uh-huh and then,representing
that I really miss my long not seen boy..
not even Valentine's I get to see him
'cause it's freakin CNY.
tsktsk it's okay.patience to the in-laws!ngahahaokay,another even obvious couply-lovey photo for him then
I MISS YOU !!
Loves,the one and naughtiestsleeping in don't know how long more of packing and double triple checkin waking up in 3hours an a halfand gonna stay awake for the rest 18hours ahh back to fresh old life
