Granny hear Me..

Back from Nirvana Memorial Centre
parlour 22


I still saw him walking around
when they were moving into their new residence.
within a week's time,
there's the news.
we went visiting by the bedside.
I was kindda shocked
seeing him eyes closed,strengthless..


I wasn't close to him.
but up & down around the house
I'd say hi ah gong,bye ah gong.
I'm not fluent in dialects,
thus I very much envy my lovely cousins
talking to the elders..
I remember us kids taking turns
to take control of the remote.
once he went snoring,we'd switch channels.
he's up,HBO's gone.haha
He and his nerdy glasses,walking wood stick
and a benevolent look.
A typical,cool looking but humorous grandpa.
I felt the closeness,
only between he & his grandchildren..


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Touching his hand,
I felt like a child again.
playing around with (mom's mom)grandma's
forearms/back of her hands.
I'd pull her non-elastic skin
& play with her 'floated-up' vessels.haha
I always find that fun
and grandma never never mind bout it..")


9 of mom & mom's siblings always story us
how fierce & strict granny was.


but I always find her annoying & nagging.

I was stubborn
I'd fight & shout or even throw stuffs
(soft stuffs) to her direction.
but I never never had the impression
that she'd ever raise her tone on me.

I was around five.
I didn't quite know what filial was.
I was spoilt.

til I was ten.
I realized something worsen her health.
she was leaving back to hometown in Kedah.
I wrapped the coins,my savings.
shyly,I put em inside the pink plastic basket.

Despite the normal days.
deep down,
have a heart for granny.


I thought money was happiness-
dumb but thoughtful.

I remember her smile so so clear.
I knew she was touched.



she accepted my heart
but gave me back the packets.


I guess that was last.


until I grew older.
Where'd You Go always always get me tearing
each time I listen to it..



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how long.
have I not touch this fine-lined,freckled hand..


9 yrs before a hundred,
Rest In Peace Grandpa Low..")

jiunn